Married men, a humble plea

So I climbed into bed last Wednesday night, round bout 10:15. It being late and most of my so called “friends” have retired from a very exhausting day apparently. Which is understandable under normal circumstances I suppose?  I however am wide awake, not even considering shutting my eyes.

So I get up, do the whole routine of switching on lights, unlocking the wretched hall way security door as I made my way to the dining table. Nothing strange for me these last couple of months. I was eager and enthusiastic to write an article concerning my very recent encounter and experience earlier that evening and therefore left a pen and examination pad on the dining table, not realising I would ever get up at 11:00 to pursue writing this.

I’m 32, divorced again and possibly looking at bankruptcy some time during 2015… most probably spend the December holiday alone. What a depressing thought for most of you that must be.  It should be if you’re not a Christian I suppose. I however had that encounter last week Wednesday night I mentioned earlier, (Atheists look away). I once was a Reborn Christian, as free as can be, in love with the most beautiful woman my eyes have ever come across. She was also a Christian – as a bonus. Life was good, perfect to say the least. We spend most of our time together, perusing God & together growing. We then got married in June of last Year; I hesitated not believing at that stage I’m actually marrying the woman of my dreams.

Guess what? A year later I’m divorced.  I messed up Big Time! Pride got the better of me. Not admitting that I have concerns regarding our finances and out of frustration with myself took it out on her. Hurting her in so many ways, I’m too embarrassed to mention them. How ignorant and blind was I. I lied to my best friend, a Godly woman which loved me.

Since the divorce (3 months ago) it’s been a tough period of time;  I’ve been up and I've been man down,  all over the show until last week Wednesday night, where I reached a point and went for spiritual counseling. I was exhausted from regret and could not handle the thousands of thoughts (Should I not have rather done this or that) racing through my mind anymore. I've become a double minded man.

During the counseling I was reminded of God’s love for me by means of the story where the Pharisees (if I’m not mistaken) brought the woman that committed adultery in front of Jesus and asked Him concerning her fate(Under the law she was supposed to be stoned). Guess what He’s response was? Let him that has no sin cast the first stone. Right there tears came running down my face as it is now from joy that I have been forgiven and that I should sin no more. The feeling of being free might not mean that I won’t be alone anymore this December and won’t bring her back, but for now I know that I have a friend in Jesus 24 hrs of the day.

I humbly plea to all the married men out there; CHERISH your wife’s, love her with all your heart and be reminded off all the vows you made. Don’t be stubborn man, if she loves you, she will certainly forgive you where you might have stepped out of line. Hence you admit your mistakes, not as I handled it in my own capacity that now have led to the disruption of many innocent people and loved ones lives.

My wish for you is that you will enjoy your holidays and rest well, but most of all - Love your wife’s unconditionally.

God Bless